its not what it seems... at times

my heart was broken a couple weeks ago,
as it was a year from then.
not many know the real you,
as right now i'm starting to know the real you.

a year ago my heart was broken by the comment you made to a girl.
i barely told you i was pregnant,
you acted out in a way i didn't want to believe.
"I love that nice ass" burns in my mind.

my baby was the only one there to comfort me,
but i needed my best friend.

as that passed you became the man i knew,
the attentive father and loving boyfriend.
my heart was full again.

my son says "dada" but once again my heart is broken
a year ago you told me you loved me and that this wouldn't happen.
only worse.

"dear friend,
she's a bitch, i'm not with her,
she only lets me see my son three times a week,
dear friend we are not together."

i put my son to sleep
tell him i love him and leave you be.

but at least your smart enough to know what just happened.
my best friend comes, i love her for that.
"should i leave" is all i say.

I could be the person you wrote me out to be
but i can't.
my son needs a father.

I love you but i dont know anymore.