About Her

It's been almost a year since I've let her go.
I have these constant scenarios running in my head.
Wondering if she would have let me in.
Would it have gotten far?

Sometimes I dream things are still better between us.
I remember running down the street with her.
I remember her smile,
I should've kissed her.

I made a horrible mess,
sad thing is my actions don't realize it.
My friends think I'm ok,
yet they don't know I think of her every now and then.

I can sometimes hear her laugh,
laughing because "I" caused her that happiness.
Something I wish I can do it again.
I wonder if I brought her comfort?,
gave her what she wanted.

Does she know when she walks away,
I break.
Does she know when I see her,
I try to get close as I can get.
Try to be her shoulder again.

Instead she built a wall to keep me out.
A wall so high, my own high could never get me to the top.

Sometimes I pretend I'm walking next to her,
Like that night we walked in constant circles.
Talked about anything,
But it's been almost a year since I let her go.

I'll always wonder if she'll let me in.