Chess

She lost at her game of chess,
the game they played everyday at the park.
He taught her the game,
never let her win,
so she played hard.

This time when she looked at the winner,
he had her best friend in his arms.
Long blonde hair
and legs that went on for days.

Comparing her self.
She was short,
as was her hair.

Her now "ex" best friend was kissing his cheek,
he was holding her close; smiling.
She lost at her game of chess,
now all she could do was walk away.

He broke her heart,
she hated him for that,
but she hated her self for still wanting him.
She loved him.

J.

They tell her to be quiet.

Before she can speak,
they know what she wants to rant on about.
They know that when she sits there quietly,
she thinks of her.

She begins to say "I.."
"We Know!" they say.
How can she not mention her?
Why don't they understand?

When she goes to sleep,
she dreams.
Dreams about the days when they were inseperable.

When she says her name,
the words "I miss you" follow right behind.

Thinking about the last time she saw her,
there was flowers blooming,
the scent of the grass,
and the sound of deer snacking in the park.
But now there is snow on the ground.

If only she could see her face,
maybe it would be enough to last the winter she has ahead of her.

They tell her to be quiet.
All she wants to say is;
"I miss her..."

Cristina

She told her to not give up,
as much as she wanted to wipe her hands clean,
take the weight off her shoulders;
she pushed through the pain.
Her legs shaking but not breaking.
It was her mothers voice in her head that kept her going,
She could visualize her mom jumping for joy,
proudly saying "thats my baby!"
It was a competition; her vs. the world.
As she pushes through the pain and her tears,
it wasn't until the last shove that she was able to breathe.
Cristina did it.
Walked away with her honor and her grace.

Singing Her Heart Out

She brushed her tears from her face,
fixed her hair,
and then put her lipstick on.

Went back out on stage,
began to sing.
Acting as if she was never crying,
hidding the fact that he was leaving her.

It wasn't till her last act that she let go,
she sang and tears began to well in her eyes.

When the crowd began to sing,
she then could feel her own pain vibrating off of them.

She stayed till the lights on the stage went out,
carried her shoes,
and grabbed the last of her bags.

The rain trickled down the car windows,
and the train pass by in the background.
Soon her taxi pulled up,
splashing her dress.

It was when she got in the taxi
she promised herself to take it one day at a time.
She got out,
dusted off her grief,
and went inside.

Closed her eyes;
prayed for a good nights rest.

About Her

It's been almost a year since I've let her go.
I have these constant scenarios running in my head.
Wondering if she would have let me in.
Would it have gotten far?

Sometimes I dream things are still better between us.
I remember running down the street with her.
I remember her smile,
I should've kissed her.

I made a horrible mess,
sad thing is my actions don't realize it.
My friends think I'm ok,
yet they don't know I think of her every now and then.

I can sometimes hear her laugh,
laughing because "I" caused her that happiness.
Something I wish I can do it again.
I wonder if I brought her comfort?,
gave her what she wanted.

Does she know when she walks away,
I break.
Does she know when I see her,
I try to get close as I can get.
Try to be her shoulder again.

Instead she built a wall to keep me out.
A wall so high, my own high could never get me to the top.

Sometimes I pretend I'm walking next to her,
Like that night we walked in constant circles.
Talked about anything,
But it's been almost a year since I let her go.

I'll always wonder if she'll let me in.

Colors

We collided together,
our colors began to mix.
The world was our canvas,
splattering the world with every step we took.

Our colors never ran,
they were never grey.
Our love was red,
energy was green.

Everywhere we went,
we turned black to yellow.
Blending in with you,
you blending in with me.

It wasn't till you started fading,
I began losing myself.

I sat by your side,
watched as grey began to take over.
Soon you were no longer apart of this world,
the world around me started blackening.

No more sound,
no more sight.
I lost you,
then I lost myself