Him Vs. He

i lay by him as the days come to an end,
sometimes lay there drifting into a nice slumber,
other; i lay there listening to the sound of his voice,
now; i lay here writing and thinking about a "what if"

at one point in my life my heart seemed to be in love with him,
then i met the one i fell in love with and he soon changed my life,
he and him are two i will always seem to keep in my heart.

laying here thinking; "have i found the one?"
"does my heart truly love "he"?"

him was my first love,
if i was with him would i be laying here in his arms?
would i have this same wide smile on my face?
can i be able to cry in his arms, like i do in "he"?
him was my first love.

he lays here sleeping soundly as i write this,
the quiet snore out beats the fans humming.
if i truly love "he" i wouldnt be questioning it, right?
he loves me and i love he,
without "he" i dont think i'd be happy like i am at this moment,
our heartbeats sync with one anothers and i fit just right in his arms.

him and me? i guess we will never be because i love He