Totally Opposite??

I was left speechless,
Unable to breathe,
Though my heart was still beating,
It was him.

Why did he do this to me?
I was told it was bound to happen.
The side effects would soon start.

First the bedevilment,
it tortured me with all it's power.
Second, bugs got inside me,
fluttering until they couldn't anymore.
Some say they will never stop fluttering.

Thirdly, his hand grabbed me,
he claimed me as his.
The sound of his inharmonious voice,
has my ears tarnished.

Again the question comes to me,
Why did he do this to me?

When he touches my cheek,
all you see is searing marks left behind.
I have been left disserved and still,
numb to the days with him, my life.

Everyone sees him as the general type,
daily routine.
They don't see what I see,
My outlook: bitter, black, hurtful, and resentful.

How could i admire someone?
Someone who has caused me such unbearable pain?

Why did he do this to me?
I guess i have to recognize what's wrong,
not with him, but me...

I'm in love with him