Run Away

My smile landed on your lips,

my arms around your neck,

and your hands on my waist.

 

 

I watched you dance her around the room,

you looked into her eyes,
just the way you use to look into mine.

You brushed her hair from her face,
kissed her forehead,
and spun her in a circle.

Everyone was smiling,
happily dancing around you and her,
and all I could do was stare.

I could have told you I loved you,
Instead I ran from love;
Your love.

Coming here to this party,
I did not expect to see you here;
Or even with her.

You then caught me looking at you,
Soon all I saw was me in your eyes.
I headed towards the door to avoid contact.

You then started losing the sync that connected you and her.
I looked back in the window as you awkwardly kissed her,
I couldn't help but wish that you would chase me.

All my dreams and hopes disappeared when I left you,
so as I walked away again,
the memories flooded my head.

I got in my car and a tear rolled down my cheek,
driving down the road, I looked one last time in my rear view mirror.
I continued driving without turning around and left you standing there watching me runaway again.

Her & David

They talked online everyday,
it was sunny for her,
it was moonlight for him.

She talked about the birds that sang along with her,
David talked about the stars that danced in the sky.
They lived an ocean apart from each other,
still they had their magical boat that they traveled on in every conversation.

She asked about the moon,
David asked about clouds,
"Can you see the rabbit on the moon?" She asked.
"Are the clouds happy?" David asked.

Every conversation was always new to them.
Nothing ever the same.
She wondered if he dreams about her,
David wondered if she looks at the moon does she think of him?

Early morning before the moon goes down she wakes up and kisses the moon goodnight,
takes every step and every breath, memorizes her feelings.
She watches anything that catches her eye,
so that the next time she talks to him, she can tell him everything.

David touches the last bit of sunlight he has before the moon comes out,
as if he is reaching for the gold.
He counts every shooting star, including the planes that fly by.
Listens to music till he hears the familiar "Beep"

Maybe just maybe they no longer have to be an ocean apart.

Wednesday

On that Wednesday
I lost my best friend.
Not in a store, not his phone number,
not even by death; but by him exiting out of my life.

Close since kindergarten but ending after 16 years.
I love him, but he no longer cares.

His problem:
wanting me to be his,
wanting to have more than our friendship,
and as I look at him; I see a Brother.

He let me go,
not a "good bye"
but more of a "forget you!"

I believed he would still be in my life,
old and still forever friends.
I was married,
and he hated that.

Everyone believed we would have kids and be a family.

My feelings towards him are not in that way,
I wouldn't kiss him, he's one of my brothers.

Should I just be divorced?
Make him happy?,
still in the end I wouldn't be with him.

As I sit on my bed,
I cry and remember everything we have been through.
Why would he throw it all away?

We might not have been lovers,
but still my heart breaks,
breaks just as much as it did when my daddy went to heaven.

He let me go,
so now I'll let him go;
I'll fade from his memory.
As for me he'll always be my best friend.